♥ambiguousxlove
"Guys,if she's amazing, she won't be easy.
If she's easy, she won't be amazing.
If she's worth it, you won't give up.
If you give up, you're not worthy."
About Me
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Vivian Zhang, is what they call me . Sophomore this year, at Woodbridge College .
Born in the '94 era, 318 is when i celebrate my birthday , blew fifteen candles on the cake this year .
I speak and understand cantonese, english, mandarin . I am learning french and attempting to learn japanese myself . I wish to speak as many languages as possible .
I'm Chinese and Vietnamese mixed, and clearly, im deeply influenced by the asian entertainment .
♫ Taiwanese and Korean Pop music is what i listen to most .
Fahrenheit, S.H.E, Jay Chou are love♥ . This is the fact that i am obsessed with Fahrenheit and Jay Chou ;D .
I absolutely adore Aaron Yan and Jiro Wang, they are such eye candies ♥.
Jay Chou is a person that i can truely say that he is my idol. He gave me the power to play the piano :) .
And ofcourse, Show Luo is my inspirationღ .
Aside from that, i am a drama addict . yes, it is what i do on my free time: watching asian dramas online .
from hong kong tvb dramas, taiwanese idol dramas, to japanese and korean dramas ive watched most of them .
What else can i say ? I'm a FOB ;D
I reside in the GTA, Woodbridge to be exact .From the then to now, I have learned so much from other people. I'm trying my hardest to live in the present and not in the past, looking forward and not looking back .
爱爱爱--
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Avatars by lovelyable.
It's those little things ..
Reminders
to buy - ۰G-Star Jacket
۰clothes&belts
۰green, silver, purple, yellow chucks
to watch -
۰Coffee Prince
۰Clue Collectors
۰Orange days
۰Mars
۰Calling Big Star
Quotes
{ MY life is like a flower that hasn't bloomed yetFrom the start of this youth,
I want to treasure it and have no regrets
WHAT'S wrong with falling down?
You can always stand up again.
FARAWAY, to a place where there are no tears left to cry.
EVERYONE feels pain.
But surely, after suffering satisfaction will arrive
Even with sports, studying or other ordeals
With life, it's like that for everyone
If we can beat the pain, on the other side,
a rainbow of happiness awaits us
That will definitely become a teasure
Let's believe in that.
WHEN my existence seems to disappear
I will look for the place where I can do the best I can
From now on, I'll deliberate slowly,
I won't be impatient
I won't be greedy
I won't give up
because everyone takes things step by step. } --1 Litre of Tears .
I want to see you, and with the mere thought of you, I smiled silly .. you made me into a fool --
YOU make me smile inside, whenever I see you, I may look like an idiot, but my face & my heart smiles as well . --
IF you every feel like letting go, I won't let you fall . --
THE sky should have been the same as always seemed like a totally different one. --Koizora
LIFE without friends is like life without sunlight . --Aaron Yan
Never shed a tear for the stress from work, because it's your choice! --Jiro Wang
You can use love to gain the whole world, you can also use hate to lose the whole world. --Aaron Yan
Follow the notes upon the journey.
At first sight marks one's destiny.
Upon the voyage come to an end.
Return lies within hasty keys. --Unspeakable Secret.
Music is power. It makes us cry, it makes us laugh, it makes us feel in invincable, it makes feel weak. It stimulates our emotions to something we cannot describe. It inspires us to do things no one else could talk us into. It is a mysteriously elegant way to simply say, "live." Music is always the answer. Now all we need to do is find the question. --
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Thursday, May 28, 2009 7:57 PM
OO6—愛回不來
hey hey hey ! ALALALALA ! s.h.e & fahrenheit makes me smile even if im down ;D i love themm ! & theyre awesome personalities & voices<3333 like if one day, just ONE DAY ! i get to meet them, im going to thank them so muchh :) .. anyways im so confsued ;( been confused for awhile . =.= i wonder when this is going to end ahhh ;(
so scared ahh >_< im gunna get three teeth pulled out for braces :( on saturday .. :\
okay .. so like im STILL not done telling this person something ..
hello again .. i really want you to know this .. but i dont have the courage .. i miss you , i love you , i want you back . but no , its nothing .. really you should let go .
thats all for now , thanks
ღvzhang
Tuesday, May 26, 2009 10:07 PM
OO5—& i think about you
konichiwa ! how is everyone doing todayy ? almost time for bedtime for me LOL . anyways .. finally finished my business portfolio , still have to finish french oral exam.. ill do that tmw morning when my thoughts come back ;D aiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiish ~ so i still cant forget about this person . hes been on my mind for practically every single day .. :\ i need to move on .. but i keep hanging on but not letting go . i dont know what to do :\ i have like mixed feelings; sometimes i want to get back with him & tell him i love him . but sometimes i want to push him away and run the opposite way . and hes been treating me differently , sometimes really cold & sometimes he holds on to me so tight i cant even breathe .. like i mean were only friends now right ? ok . for sure its going to be different tomorrow , I CAN DO IT ! :D
you made me realize that it wasn't real afterall .
♫Currently listening -
北极星的眼泪 (Tears from Polaris)
- Nicholas Teo
ღvzhang
Monday, May 25, 2009 7:16 PM
OO4—homework ? what homework ?
aiiiiiiiiiish ! ~ today i bought "Japanese in plain english" book .. and guess what ? im going to learn japanese all by myself.. look how talented i am ! LOL :] school today ;( i have such a boring semester .. oh and then im gunna take history for summer school .. how funn ! but .. i dont want to do my homework .. ;\ i have like a business project due wednesday , french oral exam and everything else ! i dont know why im complaining but still ! soo soo boring ;( and everything and everyone around me is changing faster then the weather O_O i cant even catch up .. i sometimes feel like im in a dream .. or im just super slow .. ORR im living in my own world with my dramas ;) omg todayy i was so close to say those words to him again :\ it feels like were going back in time when im with him .. going back to those memorable times ? .. i dont know .. it was those times that i miss oh so very much . ;\ i want to say saranghae to him . but .. yknow , things cant be back to original ! okay .. i guess i should start my business :|
byebye la !<3
byebye la !<3
ღvzhang
Sunday, May 24, 2009 10:13 PM
OO3—Pul-ha-u-seu ;D
hello ~ An nyoung ha seh yo ! just finished full house yesterday .. ;D a pretty good drama , totally recommend this kdrama ! now im watching my girl ! lee da hae is so funny in this drama ! hahah ;] okay .. so like today i finally went out to go shopping.. and guess what ? i only bought two ice capps .. LOL a medium ice capp supreme & a small one for my brother & my mommy :) see how nice i am la ?
okay anyways, yesterday i tried posting ANOTHER entry .. suppose to say that i finished full house & something else .. but it didnt let my post it .. im starting to get addicted to blogging LOL . anyways .. i was like renting about how fake people can be yesterday .. so like .. how can people get so so so so so so fake ?! i dont know .. how they think.. but how come they cant be their own selves ? they have to act like someone who theyre really not ? like, i mean, they can be full of lies and you dont even know it because you fully trust them . and sometimes i just wish that they can be the real them .
okay anyways, yesterday i tried posting ANOTHER entry .. suppose to say that i finished full house & something else .. but it didnt let my post it .. im starting to get addicted to blogging LOL . anyways .. i was like renting about how fake people can be yesterday .. so like .. how can people get so so so so so so fake ?! i dont know .. how they think.. but how come they cant be their own selves ? they have to act like someone who theyre really not ? like, i mean, they can be full of lies and you dont even know it because you fully trust them . and sometimes i just wish that they can be the real them .
you're not good at telling the truth .
the only thing you're good at is telling lies .
another thing .. is that im so confused .. i dont know how im ever gunna forget about him D; its hurting me so much .. and we talk everyday ;( i dont know what to do .. like it hurts for me to not talk to him and it hurts for me to talk to him .. what should i do ? help me ahh ! ;( i really miss him .
♫currently listening -
love disease - super junior♥
ღvzhang
Saturday, May 23, 2009 11:53 AM
OO2—while youre away
good morning ~ actually , almost afternoon la ! hahah ;D well i guess its another "staying @ home" weekend .. -sigh- i guess i wasnt finished in saying what i wanted to say to that person yesterday .. shall i continue ? ofcourse ! :)
CONTINUING - Dear Person A ; because we separated .. you made me understand so many things .. its starting to clear up now .. (well kinda of .. ) anyways , in those days .. those last days we fought every single day , we argued , we cried , we were mad . but most of those words you told me .. im starting to understand them now . you were right .. about everything . no one really understood me but i think youre the first one who understands . you said you cant read my mind anymore ? im the one who cant read your mind .. what are you thinking ? why do you have to force yourself to give me a hug , a kiss , when we call each other as "best friends" ? i really want to know whats going on in your mind .. who am i to you ? i really want to say all these words to you .. but i cant . i cant just confess everything to you .. because it was over a long time ago . i think its only me thinking about this .. i know that you have more important things to think about now . and please let go of me .. it hurts me when i see you treating yourself like this . and im not going to be selfish and keep you all for myself . its already over , i should let go .. i shouldnt be jealous , and i shouldnt be thinking about you anymore .
CONTINUING - Dear Person A ; because we separated .. you made me understand so many things .. its starting to clear up now .. (well kinda of .. ) anyways , in those days .. those last days we fought every single day , we argued , we cried , we were mad . but most of those words you told me .. im starting to understand them now . you were right .. about everything . no one really understood me but i think youre the first one who understands . you said you cant read my mind anymore ? im the one who cant read your mind .. what are you thinking ? why do you have to force yourself to give me a hug , a kiss , when we call each other as "best friends" ? i really want to know whats going on in your mind .. who am i to you ? i really want to say all these words to you .. but i cant . i cant just confess everything to you .. because it was over a long time ago . i think its only me thinking about this .. i know that you have more important things to think about now . and please let go of me .. it hurts me when i see you treating yourself like this . and im not going to be selfish and keep you all for myself . its already over , i should let go .. i shouldnt be jealous , and i shouldnt be thinking about you anymore .
she said - let go of me , i'm not worth it .
he said - i decide if you're worth it or not
she said - im not worth it . please ..
he said - im not letting go of you .
he said - she was my everything , now we're just strangers
she said - ever since, my heart stopped beating , we pretend not to see each other .
ღvzhang
Friday, May 22, 2009 8:02 PM
OO1—so much to say ..
i have so many things to say .. but i dont have to courage to go up to you & tell you ..
so here it is !
Dear Person A; i know that i gave you a hard time, im not sure if i really made you happy in those days we were together .. but what im sure is that those little short moments being with you will be in my mind forever . i tried forgetting them, even forgetting you . but i cant .. i think you are the first person that actually made me feel like this .. i dont know how or why or what . but i really do love you . & people tell me at this age we really dont know what love is & i agree with them . what is love, really ? i dont know .. but we all use this word "love" to express our selves .. its been more then a month now .. i remember before that day , i said those three words .. and i meant it . remember when you asked me if i really love you ? in my head the answer was yes , i do . but now .. what does it mean to you ? im really curious . i know you hate me answering "i dont know" but .. i really dont know .. im so sorry . im so sorry for everything .. you can still tell im not over you , that i dont want to let you go , that i want you , that i miss you .. but its all broken apart, all lost . all gone . the truth is , i really dont want to let you go . and i really dont know why i let you go in the first place . and now , im suffering all by myself .. crying alone at night , walking alone , being all by myself . and you said that i leave people not people leaving me ? .. you were right . i did leave you . and now, karma hits back at me . leaving me all alone crying like a fool every single day . but thank you .. in these four abnormal months .. you made my life colourful , and you gave me that happiness i didnt have . for the one millionth time , im sorry .
"I'm not going to let you go until you let go first ."-Kang Hye Won from Full House
"I cry foolishly alone"-Lee Yul from Goong
♫currently listening to:
Ye Zi (Leaf) - Ah Sang .<3
"I cry foolishly alone"-Lee Yul from Goong
hahah .. i have a lot of things to say to so many people .. soo maybe another one tmw la ?
♫currently listening to:
Ye Zi (Leaf) - Ah Sang .<3
ღvzhang